I don’t think it has anything to do with what I did yesterday. In fact I don’t think it’s anything I did period. I think I have been lied to since forever and it just isn’t making sense anymore and I am struggling to not want to rip my skin clean off and confess that I just can’t believe the lies we are told anymore. I just can’t beleive that its all my fault. I am not wrong. I have certainly made my share of mistakes, but I am not wrong. I am… I am. I don’t even think and therefore I am, I just am. How can I confess that? How can I take a moral inventory of that? How can I supress, deny, abstain or sober up from that? I am tired, but I am not sorry I am. I am tired of being told I should be ashamed and I should make amends. I am tired of being told anything. Yes, I have a lot to learn but can I at least ask a question? Can I get the answer to a question that I want to ask instead of being told everyting I am supposed to know, that I am supposed to feel? Can I ask…why have I been lied to?
