Discuss and reflect upon the idea that your discipline or lack of it has played an important part in your life.
I resent the question. All this fault finding. Don’t you think I have blamed myself enough? I know that I have created my life for what it is and only I can get myself out of it. Whether I ask for help or turn to a higher power or change my mind or change my life it starts and ends with me. But calling it my “lack of discipline” isn’t helping. Fear (as discussed in my last post) has done a lot for my discipline. When you live in fear it keeps you between the lines. Keeping life between the lines is something. Isn’t it?
Discipline to what end? to conform? To play nice with the other children? To fit what others believe is the ‘right’ way?
I have tried all my life to fit and I now have a family where I fit perfectly. It’s the rest of the world that has me afraid and confused. I don’t understand the world I live in. I don’t seem to know the rules to success. Are there rules? I wish I knew them, but I am afraid I wouldn’t want to play by some of them so I would be right where I am today, but at least I would know why.
