After driving for 3+ hours staying at a hotel where I woke up with a stiff neck. I drove another hour to reach Marshifield for my appointment. They sure have a slick operation there. They are way busier than any mall I have ever seen.
I was early for my appointment but it didn’t pay off. They took me in right on time. After the weight and blood pressure check and a few questions I was given the sheet set to wear and wait.
The doctor arrived in a bright yellow dry cleaned shirt with a forgettable tie and he was very pleasant. He thoroughly explained what would happen today and he assured me he had received from my previous doctor’s file. I felt like I didn’t even need to be in the room. He had said this so many times before. He tried to make human contact by relating that he was from the same area of the country as I but he was off by a couple hundred miles.
The exam was thorough.
The good news was he did not see any cancer. He re-read the last pap smear in attempt to convince me that the previous test had only indicated possible abnormal cells but believe me when someone calls you and tells you you have cancer you don’t mistake that for anything else. And when you are sent to another doctor for referral and he explains, in broken English, that he can not help because you have cancer and he is not an Oncologist, you don’t forget it. So how can there suddenly be no cancer? Was the report wrong. Well we are going to wait and see.
So I wait.
Pap and biopsie results are expected Monday or Tuesday.
The doctor drew a diagram of possible options for me and I was alarmed that hysterectomy was the conclusion for both branches of his option diagram of either no cancer and cancer. Even if there is no cancer he still wants to perform a hysterectomy on a 39 year old woman. Why? Is it the newest form of birth control? Is there some upside in having my body parts removed? Does he have a quota? I have to wonder.
My husband has been doing a great deal of research on alternative forms of cancer treatment and h has been feeding all sorts of vitamins including mega doses of vitamin C. He bought a big shiny juicing machine for me to use and has made a few interested suggestions regarding detoxification ideas. I trust him more than this slick dry clean only Oncologist.
I do appreciate the doctor’s and hospital’s diagnostic equipment. It is very important to know what your dealing with, but that is where I think it should end. At some point I need to take responsibility for my health.
At the end of the appointment my husband asked if there were any suggestions he had for me while I wait. Should I change my diet or anything else? The doctor said no.
I feel like someone is lying to me and I am tired of it. I know I have to do more if I expect to live a long life. I don’t believe experiences like that one, is one of them.
